A Message to all who Support Me <3
Journal Entry:
Thu Nov 26, 2009, 3:44 PM
My one form of power against all that is detrimental and horrible in my life. My connections.
It seems that if I ever seem to have a problem, I have a whole support network just magically appear out of nowhere to help me out. My online friends, my real life friends, my mother, my brother, my father, my mothers side of the family, some certain family friends and maybe even a few more people. They are all there to help me out, give me advice and help me devise a plan of action. Or in the very least, if Im wounded, they are always there to strengthen me and help me recover.
The real beauty of this support network is that it is always accessible, and in most instances, is always very well hidden. Its like my attackers dont know where I suddenly get my strength from when they think theyve beaten me down. When they think Ive lost, I magically recover, appearing as if I was never hurt at all to begin with. I am strong, because I am well supported. On my own, I would most certainly be weak and powerless.
Because of you all, I would like to say thank you.
Thank you for being there despite the horrendous and ridiculous hurdles that get thrown in my way. Whenever I feel down, thank you for either cheering me up or cheering me on, giving me advice, or making me stronger and more powerful. Thank you for helping me tackle my problems head on, or for helping me to recover when Ive been badly hurt and feel like everything is hopeless. Thank you for constantly, consistently, and effectively restoring my self-worth. Whenever I seem to lose it, and feel like nothing, you all are always there to remind me of the good that I do have in me.
The reasons behind why I am writing this are a little bit personal. Lets just say there are people out there who cant deal with their own stresses, and find life is only more bearable for them if they can make it horrible for others. A particular verbal attack last night has left me emotionally wounded. But a simple gesture of hope and love, from a place not normally expected, has helped me to realise all of the good that exists around me. This one gesture spurs memories of other gestures, words, hugs, actions and advice administered by you all. Some more than others, perhaps. But I appreciate it all equally.
I know this wont be the last time. These attacks against everything I am and everything Ive worked hard for will continue. And every day I will live life on an edge, just waiting for my vulnerability and weaknesses to be taken advantage of. But now I realise Im not as scared as I used to be. Because I have you all. So again. I say thank you.
All of my love.
XxxX
- Mood:
Optimism
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When reality strikes you, it feels like getting face slapped by a fish. O_O
I'm boooored, Judaime! I wanna do something! *sadface*
XxxX
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Sexy isn't a look, it's an aura. <3
I know, but we've got grad dinner tomorrow. That's something to do right?
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When reality strikes you, it feels like getting face slapped by a fish. O_O
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♫~ When the big world falls apart and you think that the fear will linger. You'll need somewhere to start, i will be here.
XxxX
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Sexy isn't a look, it's an aura. <3
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♫~ When the big world falls apart and you think that the fear will linger. You'll need somewhere to start, i will be here.
Aneki-wa doko des ka? (where is aneki?)
I miss you D: are you dead? Did you die? Is that even possible to die from a lack of sex? It is isn't it, and now you're dead OMIGOD *hyperventilates into a paper bag with a smilie face on it*
I just haven't heard back from you so I figured you were dead. Just wanted to make sure that wasn't the case X3
Are you enjoying your holidays? And check your bloody notes you ho-bag XD XD XD
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Kyra. Grinds Like a Maniac.
Kyra says: I'M LIKE JESUS BUT IN A HOMOEROTIC KIND OF WAY. AND WITH BOOBS.
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When reality strikes you, it feels like getting face slapped by a fish. O_O
...I DIDN'T GET A PICTURE IN MINE *fail*
XxxX
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Sexy isn't a look, it's an aura. <3
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